Day 0

They say the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.  I've been able to joke about it for a long time.  I'm addicted to food.  Hi.  I've come to realize for a long time that I have a problem. My scales says 290.  My highest weight yet. I am so unhealthy at this point in my 28 years of life that I have high blood pressure, which gives me headaches and dizziness.  Normally that is dangerous for anybody, but I just so happen to have kidney disease running rampantly in my family.  I bet you're thinking "oh yea, she's definitely got a problem".  So in addition to just feeling lousy by this obscene number on the scale, being this overweight brings with it a myriad of other embarrassments.  I am always hot and sweat like a whore in church. My thighs chafe miserably when its hot out.  Most of my clothes don't fit because I am too stubborn to buy new (bigger) ones.  I'm sorry but being unhealthy is not attractive. No one looks good round.  Its not about being skinny, its about being healthy.  My lowest weight was 170 and at 5 feet 9 inches, I was totally ok with that.  I don't generally like to write.  In fact, I hate it.  But i decided that something has to be done.  I have yo-yoyed too much with my weight.  Something has to keep me on track. Thus the attempt at blogging.  I must stop this vicious cycle.  Being healthy is a way of life, a diet isn't.  I'm not going to call this a diet, this will be a lifestyle change.  So, tomorrow I will give up all processed junk (my kryptonite).  I will post a picture of myself at my friend's wedding last weekend.  I will chronicle my daily exercise and general food intake.  No calorie counting, just sensible healthy eating. I'm getting off my ass and doing more than walking around my college campus two days a week.I have a feeling that this will be like breaking the addiction to nicotine. I quit smoking over a year ago and vividly remember the withdrawal.  7 years is not something easily gotten back.  Something else I didn't do was watch what I ate.  I'm pretty sure Freud would say I had an oral fixation.  Can't you tell I'm taking psych this semester?  So Day 1 will be November 14th, 2011.  Wish me luck.