Day 2

I'm so angry at myself today.  How did I let my weight get so out of control?  Again.  I have struggled with my weight since high school.  I'm 28 years old, you'd think I would have learned. I had an interview today at a clothing store.  I just kept thinking "will all they see this fat girl?"  I know its irrational but I can't help it.  I have another interview on Thursday so hopefully my personality won them over. I had a bowl of Crispix this morning because I still really need to go to the store.  Since we are low on the cash end, Eric and I are going to Aldis later. I'm about to make a new playlist and do 20 minutes of the Biggest Loser Cardio Max dvd.  I'm hoping the endorphins will perk up my mood.  I have to say though that all the feedback I have been getting from my friends is really helping.  I couldn't do it without you guys.  Especially Eric.  He has always been there for me with absolutely no judgement. I don't know what I would do without him.  He even puts up with me when I yell at him.  Which I did earlier.  I looked everywhere and could not find my dvd.  It wasn't in the case and nowhere else to be found. Sooooo, I ending up walking our dog Roosevelt around our apartment complex a couple of times.  There is also a small gym here that I will probably use when it gets colder out.  After the store, I had the same dinner as last night. I bought a lot of fresh fruits and vegetables. Eric is going to get a movie and I'll probably snack on popcorn again.  This day was a little better but it's still a struggle.  I wanted to eat all the cookies at Aldi.  I wonder if that feeling will ever go away.